Michael Ruddell (pr_toman) wrote,
Michael Ruddell


That is how I feel today is blah and it explains my mood perfectly. I have felt that way for like 3 days now and it isn't getting any better. I have some kind of sinus infection and havnt been hungry at all. I finally chocked down some whataburger tonight. I feel a little better. To fight off an illness you need the gas to do it and rest as well. I havn't been getting much rest either. We ended up getting a room at the holiday inn and that is where I am at right now. They have internet access so I am taking advantage of it. Loren was like 3 hours late for work today. I finally went to sleep at about 5:30am after that fiasco and slept until about 12:30pm. The whole time it was like a restless sleep though. I kinda feel like I am going crazy in a way. I am just not happy. I am depressed and I'm not sure why.

I was notified today that Loni associates with Loren. That made me cringe. That is just sickening. I really appreciated it the way he brought it to me. He was worried about me getting involved with the wrong kinda people. He knew I was trying to fly it straight and was worried that I may get pulled back down if I stay with Loren. absolutly NOTHING good can come out of Loni and Loren knowing each other. I can't be with someone that uses either and that is kind of a concern. She says she isn't,but iono. Loni and Loren have to many common letters.. that is scary.

I don't have a ride back to the center tomorrow.. that sucks.. Hopefully I will manage. Nick got to hook up with Barbara today. She really likes him. She is a really nice girl. I hope he doesn't hurt her..............

our motel room is fucking trashed. It was trashed when we got it. There was trash and dirty bed linen and towels already there when we got there. Now all our trash is on top of it. They used the drawer for a trashcan.. haha. I'm so tired that I'm dilerious... well thats all for now.
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